right.

nice to see people are still with me! i've taken a break from blogging and documenting outfits because i've felt pretty down on myself the past few months. since i came home from school, i've felt really guilty both for coming home from school and for working on my disordered eating, especially since the latter changed my body type a bit and was kind of detrimental to the confidence i'd built up since starting work at ragstock.

a lot of people don't really understand the guilt trips i go through over choosing whether or not to eat or to exercise away what i've consumed, and i don't really know how to explain it. it's just been a source for calmness for me for months into years. i still feel bad about my looks and emotions a lot of the time.

someone recently was quizzical towards my interests in fashion and makeup and wondered why, if i'm a feminist, i would care about it at all. it's the same frustrating standpoint that people take of Woman Wants To Be Anything So She Has To Be Everything, the kind of view that a feminist wouldn't want to be a housewife-- it's so typically feminine. so why would i be into fashion? it's stereotypically girly.

i feel like it's one of the least helpful perspectives people attach to feminism. when people ask me why i'm interested in a stereotype, i can't help but think that they've completely missed the idea. i mean.. who.. cares? as long as i have options, it's a non-point.

it isn't for you.

it's for me.

IT'S ALL FOR ME.

happiness is love necklace, thrift / dress, hazel / watch, gift / shoes, h&m

i wish i could gather my thoughts and express all the frustrations i've had in the past few months regarding human rights, but there's so much that i'll have to keep writing about it when something comes up. it's just become a huge interest to me, and every time someone tries to shut me down, i realize how important it is.

anyway, here's a frilly new outfit. old shoes and accessories, new dress. i kind of feel like a parfait in this dress, but in a good way? it's just like a sweet lemon meringue concoction, definitely lighter than my normal dress code, to celebrate summer being here in full swing.

i hope to actually be posting more. it's hard to go from the bay area back to wisconsin and keep inspired, but i'm going to try to post once or twice a week now.

ta!

bridges.

shirt, urban / shorts, etsy / socks, gift / shoes, h&m

i was going to finish some idle drawings this morning and post them, but i realized i've been using everyone else's watercolors and colored pencils, and they're all sleeping, and all i have is acrylic paints, charcoal, and ink. so i'll have to wait for another entry for that!

also, themed post coming up! just leaving you with some pictures of my rainy-day-stay-inside-and-drink-tea-and-get-over-being-sick-so-i-can-get-done-with-finals-projects-as-soon-and-as-well-as-possible outfit. over-the-knee socks are my best friend in this weather.

enjoy the cutesy harp goodness,

music: bridges and balloons -joanna newsom

spare change.

so, as the idea goes, i'm spending the last few days in my dorm, because i'm moving to another building on campus. a new roommate, a new room, so that's exciting and interesting, and i'll miss what's going on here, but it isn't like i'm moving far away. i just have to cope and handle these changes-- i make them a way bigger deal than they have to be sometimes. and some changes can be wonderful.

... also, i'm sneaking in a picture of my outfit today because it's simple and i can.

lipstick, lime crime / head chain, etsy / tee, anthropologie / jeans, cheap monday / shoes, dsw

i've been sleeping so poorly the past week and a half or so, waking up at weird hours and sleeping in the middle of the day and acting like a zombie, but i think things are better right now.

expect new actual street fashion soon-- that part of the blog's been a little m.i.a., but it's coming back!

till next time,

music: crazy -gnarls barkley