right.

nice to see people are still with me! i've taken a break from blogging and documenting outfits because i've felt pretty down on myself the past few months. since i came home from school, i've felt really guilty both for coming home from school and for working on my disordered eating, especially since the latter changed my body type a bit and was kind of detrimental to the confidence i'd built up since starting work at ragstock.

a lot of people don't really understand the guilt trips i go through over choosing whether or not to eat or to exercise away what i've consumed, and i don't really know how to explain it. it's just been a source for calmness for me for months into years. i still feel bad about my looks and emotions a lot of the time.

someone recently was quizzical towards my interests in fashion and makeup and wondered why, if i'm a feminist, i would care about it at all. it's the same frustrating standpoint that people take of Woman Wants To Be Anything So She Has To Be Everything, the kind of view that a feminist wouldn't want to be a housewife-- it's so typically feminine. so why would i be into fashion? it's stereotypically girly.

i feel like it's one of the least helpful perspectives people attach to feminism. when people ask me why i'm interested in a stereotype, i can't help but think that they've completely missed the idea. i mean.. who.. cares? as long as i have options, it's a non-point.

it isn't for you.

it's for me.

IT'S ALL FOR ME.

happiness is love necklace, thrift / dress, hazel / watch, gift / shoes, h&m

i wish i could gather my thoughts and express all the frustrations i've had in the past few months regarding human rights, but there's so much that i'll have to keep writing about it when something comes up. it's just become a huge interest to me, and every time someone tries to shut me down, i realize how important it is.

anyway, here's a frilly new outfit. old shoes and accessories, new dress. i kind of feel like a parfait in this dress, but in a good way? it's just like a sweet lemon meringue concoction, definitely lighter than my normal dress code, to celebrate summer being here in full swing.

i hope to actually be posting more. it's hard to go from the bay area back to wisconsin and keep inspired, but i'm going to try to post once or twice a week now.

ta!

bridges.

shirt, urban / shorts, etsy / socks, gift / shoes, h&m

i was going to finish some idle drawings this morning and post them, but i realized i've been using everyone else's watercolors and colored pencils, and they're all sleeping, and all i have is acrylic paints, charcoal, and ink. so i'll have to wait for another entry for that!

also, themed post coming up! just leaving you with some pictures of my rainy-day-stay-inside-and-drink-tea-and-get-over-being-sick-so-i-can-get-done-with-finals-projects-as-soon-and-as-well-as-possible outfit. over-the-knee socks are my best friend in this weather.

enjoy the cutesy harp goodness,

music: bridges and balloons -joanna newsom

cocorosie would love me.

today's outfit was one hundred percent inspired by the below cocorosie song. a little bit of dark, a little bit of sweetness. a few bows and flowers, dark jeans, strong wedges, and an extra electric pop.

and there's the rare thing where i'm wearing my glasses. because i can't SEE, people. i just get really self-conscious about how i look with glasses, so i hardly ever wear them, but i like how they look with this outfit. does anyone else wear glasses? how do you style them? do you buy really elaborate frames? i own clear-and-tortoise cat-eye frames and a pair of black ones. i wish i had crazy vintage seventies ones because i'm so hip.

anyway, here i am, and here i go.

bow, american apparel / glasses, gift / shirt, vintage / blazer, h&m / rings, gifts  / jeans, cheap monday / shoes, crown vintage (dsw)

music: werewolf -cocorosie

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fall preview.

first outfit: bowler hat, ebay / shirt, urban outfitters (ss04) / jacket, gap / shorts, etsy / creepers, demonia

second outfit: mesh button-down, american apparel / sweater, mother's / pendant, atomickatz vintage / skirt, american apparel, shoes, h&m

third outfit: beanie, thrift / flannel, ragstock / tank, obey (ss08) / shorts, urban outfitters / boots, doc martens

while it's too warm in the midwest u.s. to be wearing all this, i decided to throw these clothing sets together for school this fall. i'll just add tights for the chilly moments, and throw them in my school bag-- a gifted dark brown messenger-- if it warms up.

i love dressing for fall as everything has to be in layers. even my winter will be this way, living in san francisco, except i might have to throw a heavy coat on over everything. i hope i have more days where i don't have to do that, as i hate to cover up whatever i've selected for the day.

anyway, this is about as Grunge as i get. i've seen so many people debate the definition of grunge style online, and literally, i'd probably say that it means unintentionally looking like kurt cobain and smelling up something awful, but i firmly believe that i can mix in some nineties flair to my wardrobe and still... wash my clothes.

also, i promise i will get that give-away up by the end of this week! expect sunnies and something simply prada.

enjoy!

music: hell (cover) -streetlight manifesto